Making a mess

While reading in bed one night last week, I heard someone get up and go into the bathroom. 

A few seconds later I got up to go check on whoever it was that had gotten out of bed. 

I walk down the hall and there was Wade, finishing up using the restroom all over the cabinets and Park's stool.  Like it was no big deal.  Absolutely normal.  At least this was better than two nights before when he just opened his bedroom door and went right there on the hall carpet.  Tile is much easier to clean than the carpet!

Well, by now Colby is in the bathroom too and we're cleaning and laughing and poor Wade is just standing there with this incredibly blank look on his face.  He's obviously sleepwalking and has no idea what he's doing!  So I snap a picture to show him in the morning and we tell him that we love him and tuck him back into his bed. 

Funny?  Yes. 

But how many times has this story been a snap shot of what's going on in my life? 

I'm busy. 
I'm distracted. 
I'm depressed. 
I'm overwhelmed. 
I'm stressed. 
I'm totally functioning on auto pilot. 
I'm sleepwalking through life.

I make a mess out of things just like Wade did in the bathroom. Still even when I don't feel like it or I'm not aware, God is always right beside me.  Wanting me to just open my eyes and see Him.  Really see Him.  See that He has a better plan for me.  A better way. 

And even when I don't get it, I don't change, I don't wake up - He's not there to scream and yell and condemn me.   He picks me up, tells me He loves me, and and I as go to bed with hopes that tomorrow will be a better day - He patiently waits, hoping that we can talk about things in the morning. 

John 14:27  "I am leaving you with a gift - peace of mind and heart.  And the peace I give is a gift the world cannot give.  So don't be worried or afraid."

Tear ducts take 3

See this place?

Yep, we have too.

FIVE times since June 2008.

This, my friends, is the Hamot Surgery Center.  And as we walked out of there today I said goodbye.

And I meant it!!!

We are beyond blessed because none of our children's surgeries have been anywhere near serious.  Ear tubes, tonsils, tear duct... 

And we know there are some of you that have had to walk through horribly painful medical issues with your children.  You are so brave.  And so strong.  Even if you don't feel like it, I know you are!

 I know because going through these last 5 small, insignificant, easy procedures has not been easy.  It's so hard to watch your babies go through something painful and scary.  You would take their place in a heartbeat.

Today our youngest, Park, had his 3rd procedure to try to open up his tear ducts. 

(Click here to read about Try #1 Try #2 Try #2)

We had to be there at 8:30.  We had to literally keep Parker upstairs until it was time to leave because we knew that if he even got a glimpse of the kitchen and couldn't eat that he would have freaked out!!

Trying to smile

That's better :)  I never want him to grow up....

Big brother Jake chillin in pre-op with us



In the recovery room.  Doesn't he break your heart?  (After his face had been cleaned...  see below!)



Finally at home - pitiful, huh?

Bloody goofball

The surgery, which placed tubes in his tear ducts that will remain there for up to 6 months, took about 20 minutes and his time in the recovery room was really short.  He woke up so easily and never even cried once.  But before we were taken back to the recovery room the doctor warned us - and I quote - "he's a bloody mess."  Awesome.  Thanks for the warning I guess?!  He was definitely right.  Blood from his eyes and his nose was ALL OVER HIS FACE!  And so far that's been the only thing we're dealing with...  a constant bloody nose.  It's definitely worse than the last time but we were assured that it's normal for up to 36 hours.

We are praying that these tubes will correct the problem this time!  We won't know until the tubes are removed as the opening of the tube, which can be seen if you look hard enough, somewhat blocks the opening of the duct - therefore we're still going to be dealing with teary eyes for awhile!! 

Thank you all for your prayers, emails, phone calls, and texts!!

Teeth time

The little boys had dentist appointments today. This was Park's first time and he did great. He's always had this irrational fear of reclining *like in a stroller or laying down on a changing table in a public restroom (HE SCREAMS EVERY TIME!)* so they couldn't lay him back very far... but other than that he did just fine!

(This is my first post using a blogger app so I apologize if it looks weird!)

April 17 - I've been waiting for you!!

Guess what people?

It's HERE!

It's tax day and where most people hate this day - - I LOVE IT!

While I work no where close to the amount of hours that others in my firm do, I still work more than my normal schedule. 

But it's over!  At least for this year. 

So let the blogging resume...